Tuesday 26 February 2013

 
 
20Th August 2010 d day we broke up wid each othr....

It's been 2years since d last time I saw ur face. I had seen so many moons n sunsets bt still no trace of ur smile. My heart longd fr u as the flowers longed for the rain. Wt hv u been doing nw? I hope u still remember the way I called your name back then. There are so many things that I can't forget about you. The way you comb your hair in the beautiful daylight, the way you speak, the way you swear, the way you walk and from this I must say ... I love everything about you. I wish I could be there where you are right now. To hold you and tell the very secret that my soul kept inside up to now - that I love you. This is my purpose in life ... to protect you and give all the very best for you. As I write this letter, I can almost feel you beside me.

Do you know I exist? Do I mean anything to you? What have I ever done to deserve this? Sure, I have turned into a hideous monster.

I always dream of you this way ... And as the days passes by, my love for you will never go, it grows stronger and deeper in the depths of my heart. Please don't ask me why do still long for you ... for there's no one else but you that this heart of mine would love forever. My heart will always belong to you and all my love I send to you.

 
 


Thursday 21 February 2013


You May Not Ever Read This But I Feel Like I Should Get This Out. These Past Years Have Been The Best Years Of My Life. We're From Two Different Worlds & Loving You Has Made Me So Happy. I've Also Been In The Worst States Of Mind In The Past Months Too & Every Time I Saw You My Problems Disappeared. ILOVE YOU SO MUCH & I'm Grateful For Making Me a Better Person. I Was Such a Douche To Everybody But You Taught Me To Not Be a Douche....To You (LOL) I've Just Never Had A Girl Who Understands Me (I'm Hard To Understand) The Way You Do. I Do Plan To Marry You So Brace Yourself For The Most Embarrasing Proposal EVER :) You're My Girll & ILOVEYOUALWAYS&FOREVER, POOKIE <3 <3

Tuesday 19 February 2013



I'm sorry that I said goodbye, people say I did the right thing but they don't have to cry. I can love you for all the thing that you are, and then hate you for all the things that you're not, I want you to go, I want you to stay, but I can't have it both ways.

I know that you'll never read this and I don't even care. But I think I have to express exactly how I feel. I don't care if you reject me, ignore me, and forget all about me. I just have to tell you before it's too late. I been taking forever because you hurt me and deserted me. It's not a big deal at all...to you. I can find someone else easily. But the thing is, I really don't want to. I don't understand what happened between us. Maybe it's because you found someone better than me... You just don't realize how much that hurt me. I honestly want to forget about you, but that's my problem. I can't. You've never gave me a real apology, you just cared about yourself and left me there to figure it all out. And now I have: You got sick of me, found someone better than me, dumped me, dated him, ignored me, befriended me, and now you've forgotten about me.
 
Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don’t deserve me. They’re right, you don’t deserve me, but I deserve you.
It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving some one when your heart still does.Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
There hasn’t been one day since you left where I haven’t fought the urge to put you back in my life.
Wish you were here. Wish I was there. Wish it was different. Wish wishes came true. I’d wish you back.

I want to cry, really I do but I guess I just dont want to give you the satisfaction
of knowing that you hurt me… once again.






Everyone Thinks That Am Happy And Fine…
But
Look A Little Closer You Will See Tears In My Eyes…

I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough..

I don't know why i m still waiting for you..!!

 
 
I still miss those days .
that, hours of chatting .
fighting over little things.
late night talks .
sharing secrets .
weird dreams .
...
“being possessive” attitudes .
waiting for your texts .
watching your pics and texts over and over .
smiling for no reason .
trusting you blindly .
your hugs and kisses .
your innocent wishes .
and, now just having .
blank inbox .
no more “I love u” .
hours of loneliness.
unshared emotions .
late night cries .
heartbreaking secrets .
shattered dreams .
deleted memories .
fake smiles .
broken trust .
your nailed hugs .
your devious heartaches .
I don't know why i m still waiting for you..!!
 

Some People Are So Lucky That Even After Hurting, They Get So Much Love &
Some Are So Unlucky That Even After Giving So Much Love, They Always Get Hurt....!!



She met him after a long break up.

She told him : Sorry, I've met a new one, I have a new bf and another future..
How about your life?

...
He closed his eyes to hide his tears, Remembered all the memories he shared with her, He remembered how he shared her pain be4 her happy moments and how he refused many other girls just to stay with her.

He kept the remains of his pride and collected his force,
smiled and said : Sorry Mam, but i love you....

Friday 15 February 2013


It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now.
 
 
 
And i wonder if i ever cross your mind, for me it happens all the time..</3 </3







Let me hold you for the last time,
It's the last chance to feel again.



 

 


Getting Over You Is Really Very Hard For Me, And I'm Not Really Sure I Will Ever Be Completely Over You.

One Day You'll Look To See I've Gone.
For Tomorrow May Rain, So I'll Follow The Sun.
Some Day You'll Know I Was The One.
But Tomorrow May Rain, So I'll Follow The Sun.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 


Thursday 14 February 2013

Happy Valentine's Day Love....There's No Love Like The First.




















There's still a lot of,

You haven’t left my thoughts. Ever. Not even once. To put it quite simply, I miss you. I miss the way you would confide in me. I miss the stories you would unfold in my ears. I miss feeling your smile even if it was only on the phone. I miss every moment lived with you. I despise every moment without you. I miss the portrait I’ve painted of you with my mind. And I could spend hours trying to explain why it still hurts, but it’s quite complicated and all I know is that I miss you. And sometimes I’d rather not know that you miss me too.
  

I would love to know why the thought of you still keeps me restless at the oddest hours of the day, but what I would love even more is to know if I have the same effect on you. Your eyes are still my favorite place to get lost in. Your heart is still the only place I can call home. Your arms are the single greatest comfort I’ve come to know. And call me crazy, but I don’t think you’ll ever understand the effect your smile has on me.

Sometimes when I look at you, I just want to kiss you. More than anything, I just want one kiss. A kiss to tell me that you trust your lips against mine. A kiss to prove to me that I can still see the world with my eyes closed. A kiss to remind me that actions do truly speak louder than words. I miss the paradoxical feeling of having my lungs filled with the sweetest air possible, yet still feel so breathless
.

It terrified me that I had the responsibility of catching you when you said you were falling in love with me. Not because I wasn’t ready or that I wasn’t already in love with you, but because I’ve never been trusted with such fragile and genuine feelings before. I failed you. And now what terrifies me the most is that you request me not to be there to catch you. 




But it already feels like an eternity ago when it was all so real. I traded away the happiness I found in your hands that fit so perfectly with mine. I traded away the peace I found when you rested your head on my chest to listen to my heart beat. I traded away the harmony I found in your voice when you talked me to sleep while I ran my fingers through your hair. I traded away the bliss I felt when you first called me Hun and made me realize that I would never be the same again. I traded away the way you made me feel that nothing else has compared or even come close to. And I’m afraid that nothing ever will. 
 



I’ve lost you, and yet I still love you. A different definition this time around. A love that I’ve gradually learned from you. Unspoken.Unconditional. Resilient. You drive me crazy and keep me sane at the same time and I wouldn’t want it any other way. At times it hurts to love you, and it fills me with anger that I become ashamed to feel. Ashamed, not just for the wrong things that I have done, but also for the right things that I failed to do.



I forced myself out of a love that was given to me unconditionally. I forced myself into the dark, until I could no longer remember how to feel with my eyes. I forced my mind to believe that I loved you more than you ever loved me. But the worst part was selling my soul for a price I know I can never repay, and forcing myself into thinking that you never truly loved me because you never would’ve left. It brings a subtle devastation to my life knowing we could never be, because I was always willing to bet my life that you were meant for me.



You were the kind of secret I couldn’t keep to myself. And I didn’t really think about where it would end up because I was so enthralled in trying to recapture the best feeling that I’ve ever felt. No excuses. I turned my back on the one person that believed they could count on me. Never in a million years will I ever be able to forgive myself for destroying the world I once considered my everything. Not being able to have the only thing you want out of life hurts a lot more than they say it would. And I deserve every morsel of pain and suffering. I just hope one day that I’ll fully comprehend how much you truly loved me. 


Think of this as a simple love letter- full of emotions I cannot express, telling you everything you should hear with the words only my heart could comprehend. You are everything when I’m convinced that I should be nothing at all. Simply put, thank you. For every second of your time, every ounce of your patience, every bit of your effort, and every drop of your love.  





For always.....!!

Wednesday 13 February 2013




Kiss me, and you will see how important I am..

I kissed my first girl and smoked my first cigarette on the same day. I haven't had time for tobacco since.

For You Simran <3 <3 <3 <3

If I ever write the story of my life
Don’t be suprised if you’re where it begins
Girl, I’d have to dedicate every line on every page
To the memories we made, while you loved me

I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
(I lived) While you loved me

I’d start with chapter one, love innocent and young
As the morning sun on a new day
Even though I know the end, Well I’d do it all again
‘Cause I got a lifetime in, while you loved me

I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
(I lived) While you loved me.



Monday 11 February 2013

 

Wish you a happy hug day.

If a hug represented how much I loved you, I would hold you in my arms forever.



If you hesitate when I hold ur hand, i will let you go. If you run away when I give you a kiss, i will let you go. But once you let me give you a hug, just once… I will never let you go.

I hide my tears when I say your name, but the pain in my heart is still the same. Although I Smile and Seem Carefree, There is no one Who misses you more than ME.






Saturday 9 February 2013

 

I Made My Promise To You On 18TH/OCTOBER/2009, That I Will Never Leave You Alone And Will Love You Till My Last Breath. I Stood On This.

You Made Promises To Me But All Went Into The Vain.

I Dunno What You Think About Me..Seriously Lord I Am Lost In Her Beauty, In Her True Love.
You Are The Only One Whom I Love The Most.
I Would Diw Without You One Day.
Nobody Loves Me Now And The Way You Loved Me For 11 Months Was Incredible, Wish I Could Steal Your Heart And You From This World.

I Knoe Simran, You Think ICHEATEDONYOU, IABUSEDYOU, But Nothing Like That, ISTILLLOVEYOU & MYHEARTCRIESFORYOUEVERYDAY

Writing This Is Really Tough For Me, When I Start Writing Tears Start Flowing.

IAMMADFORYOU
ICRYFORYOUEVERYDAY
PEOPLEMAKEFUNOFMYLOVEFORYOUTHATSHE'SGONEBUTISTILLLOVEYOU.
THEYHATEMEANDYOUTOOHATEME </3 </3
 

I have a little teddy bear
Who's always there for me,
When I need someone to talk to
She listens quietly.

She doesn't get mad or yell
Or ever put me down,
She never gets jealous or envious
And never has a frown.

When I need a hug she's there
Waiting with open paws,
Her eye is broken, her arm is ripped
But I don't mind her flaws.

I love my little teddy bear
With her cute little face,
And if we were more like
Teddy bears the world
Would be a better place
.

Make Me Your Panda Teddy..<3 <3..:( :(


The sweetness of chocolate is bitter in front of you. You are so sweet. I’ll never forget you. Always stay as you are

Feeling Soooo Low Today Wish I Could Talk To You Now But I Have No Option Rite Now To Contact You. But Still I Can Feel You In My Heart..Love Yaah Baby.. <3 <3 <3 <3

HaPpY cHoCoLATe DaY..<3 <3 <3 <3

Thursday 7 February 2013



HAPPY PROPOSE DAY LOVE <3 <3 <3 <3

Lovely Day Is Here Again.
I Wanna Hold Your Again, Till My Last Breath.
I Am Stuck In The Middle, Want You Here Now But :( :( :( :(

IAMLOSTBROKENHURTSPOILEDDIEINGFORYOU#COMEBACKLOVE








For You Simran,

Oh yeah, I'll tell you something
I think you'll understand
When I say that something
I want to hold your hand
I want to hold your hand

I want to hold your handOh please say to me
You'll let me be your man
And please say to me
You'll let me hold your hand
You'll let me hold your hand

I want to hold your hand.






On This Beautiful Day, I am sitting alone in this garden. Holding a bunch of flowers for you, feeling the love & hoping you would come back and would hold my hands forever.

With this rose…. I reveal all my….
thoughts and feelings about you….
that I have withheld for so long……
I feel when I am with you I am like a rose….
not because of it’s beauty…..
but because I am able to bloom and grow with you….<3 <3 <3 <3

Wednesday 6 February 2013

No one will ever know the pain I feel inside..!!


Tears fall from my eyes, blood comes from your lies, from all your goodbyes, here in my grave, is where my body lies </3 </3..!!
 



I Wish.. We Could Fly Like These Birds Once Again..Dreaming And Feeling Your Love For Me.

Hard To Forget You And My Love For You..!!

My Darling
My every breath I breathe!
My heart beats for you and I find myself falling
asleep and waking up thinking of you.
The sun shines and the sky is blue.
The birds sing to the tune
of my everlasting love for you.
I want you to know on this special day
and in doing so always remember forever,
till the end of time that no matter when,
or where each time you look around
and beyond or up in the blue sky above,
be it midnight or midday my love will always be there.
Each star you count, each song you sing.
may it bear the three magical words,
I would want to say, over and over,
and yet afraid that they may lose their magical charm
but my heart soars with love for you in undimensional ways.
O! HOW I LOVE YOU!
If I had one wish, I'd ask for wings to fly you
to the sensational peaks and heights of my love.
I'd carry you atop my wings
and show you the flight of the Phoenix
and in doing so just maybe, you would know the depth of my love.
And if we should fall, a floating cloud would catch us
and as long as we are together
the warmth of our true love will see us through
reminding us as we go along that no matter
how hard the fall. we will survive it all,
afterall! You are my reason for living,
and you are the power beneath my wings.
So darling, let us soar like the awesome phoenix,
and dance on the cloud of love,
wrapping ourselves in the rainbows of heaven.
Experiencing the meaning and magic of...
TRUE LOVE!

Tuesday 5 February 2013

Living on a hope that you would call me once..!!

Sad but true, you left me on pills simran,

IAMSPOILED
IAMLOST
IAMPISSEDOFF

PLEASE EK BAAR GAL KARLE MERE NAAL KI PATA ZINDAGI VADH TO VADH HO JAYE.

BHAGWAN TO DARR SIMRAN, AAJA HOSH VICH NA ROL APNI ZINDAGI, HALLE VI KUCH NI VIGDEYA.

AKELA THA AKELA HU AKELA RAHUNGA AKELA CHALA JAUNGA ISS ZINDAGI SE.

AGAR TERE LAI MEIN KUCH VI MAINE RAKHDA HOWAN TE IK VAARI CALL KRLAI MEINU..KI PATA EH HANJU TERE PAIRAN VICH DIG PAEN.

LOVE YOU SIMRAN.

I LOVED YOU , WILL LOVE YOU TILL MY LAST BREATH.

FOREVER ALONE LOST AND MAD..:((

I just cant stop crying now..kaash koi tjhe samjhata mere liye..sach me yaar wapis aaja ni rulaunga sach me.

TU MILI TI KABHI NHI SOCHA THA KI YE HAAL HOGA LIFE MEIN, KAHI MANN NI LAGTA YAAR, MAAF KARDE HUN.

IK VAARI GAL KARLE MERE NAAL.

AB TOH I WANT YOU OR DEATH.

LOVE YOU..Khayal Rakhi Apna.

Alone In This Messy World..!!

Iloveyou Iloveyou Iloveyou Iloveyou Iloveyou Iloveyou Iloveyou

Na karun yaad tujhe to ulajh jata hun apni sanson se, Samajh mein nahi aata K zindagi sanson se hai ya teri yaadon se.
Sometimes, I just wish you would talk to me again.
You have no idea how hard it is for me to stop thinking about you.

Everyday, I Wait For A Text.
Everyday I See You I Wait For A
Hello.
Everyday I Check My Facebook
To See If You Wrote On My Wall.
Everyday I Tell My Friends How
Much I Adore You.
Everyday I Find Myself Let
Down.
But Everyday I Still Find Hope...

I Am Alive But With Her Memories..!!

I still spend sleepless nights with tears in my eyes, actually no one is listening to me.
I was all alone in this world.
I dunno what happend to her ek dum se, i was all blank..

USKE FRIENDS NE USSE KYA KHA AND THEY USED TO BLACKMAIL HER ON MY NAME TRUST ME I WAS NOT EVEN IN TOUCH AFTER MY BREAK UP.

GUYS HAD SEND MANY BULLSHITS AT HER PLACE WHICH SHE TOLD ME.
THEY ALL HAD BLANKED HER MIND FOR ME. AND THAN ALSO SHE BLAMED ME KI YOU ARE WRONG & I CANT TRUST YOU ANYMORE.

BEING A TRUE LOVER SERIOUSLY I NEVER FOLLOWED HER OR TRACED HER NUMBER, some times she blamed me for everything..

what was my fault god..?? my fault was i loved her.

IT'S BEEN 4 YEARS TILL NOW I CANT STOP DREAMING ABOUT HER, I LOVE HER, I CARE FOR HER BUT SHE WONT BE HEARING ME.

DID EVERYTHING.

I HAVENT SEEN HER FACE AFTER BREAK UP..I CRY FOR HER..I AM NOT MEANT FOR HER BUT SACH ME I LOVE HER. MY LIFE IS FUCKED UP YAAR SACH ME.

NOBODY IS THERE TO HEAL MY PAIN AND LOVE ME AGAIN.

YOUR THE ONE WHO LOVED ME ONCE AND NOW I AM LEFT WITH YOUR MEMORIES, SONGS AND TEARS.

TEARS TEARS TEARS TEARS.........PLEASE LISTEN TO ME..

Bad Days..Countdown Begins..TEARS TEARS..I LOVE YOU SIMRAN..!!

Finally the day has arrived in our life when she went to hostel on 7Th/JUL/2010.
Bus fir kya sabh kuch galat. In when she was in her hostel things were good in first week but suddenly what has happened their i dunno.....:(( :((

Ssly aajtak bhi mujhe nahi pta ki uske freinds ne ussse kya bola and kya kiya uske mind ko, she broke up with me and even i abused her because i loved her and i do till the date. May be that thing hurted her. Bus Fir kya LIFE SACH MEIN BEKAR HONE LAG GAYI.

To be honest aajtak i m in this tension why she started hating me..??
I am dieing to hear the reasons behind my break up..?? God are you listening to me...?? Helloo.......
No was their with me at that time..i was all alone in dark room with her memories..which used to kill me..

I cared for her so much but she neva realised it or valued it.
All went in vain.

LIFE GOT TOUGH AND FULL OF DEPRESSION.

And Suddenly We Get Into Some Trouble..!!

I dunno what happened exactly, her father caught her cell and read all our conversations, and from that day evrything started to get messed up, But somehow we managed to take it on a rite track and we stood on that but KEHTE HAI NA BURA SAMAY AATA HAI TO SABH KUCH UJAAD JATA HAI AND WAISA HE HUA.

Her father took some destructive decision to put her into hostel, so that she couldnt meet him.
Ahhhh its really tough for me to narrate this incident(Tears Tears Tears Tears).
We tried everything to change her father's mind but at that time nothing was going on our side.
Even god left us in the middle of sea. We were hopeless and our Relation SHIP started sinking.
No hopes were left infront of us.
We used to meet but Chup Chup Ke Because Uncle was against our love and relationship.

From That Day Life Got Tortured By Many Things.
Nothing was on our end, IF DOING LOVE IS A CRIME THAN KILL US. EVEN GOD HAS DONE THIS THAN WHY SHOULD WE SUFFER.

NOTHING COULD BEAT HER FATHER's FINAL DECISION THAT HE WOULD SEND HER TO HOSTEL.

Buss fir kya life ki lagni start ho gayi..

HELLL HELLL HELLL HELLL

Life Came On Amazing Track When She Made Entered In My Life..!!

After 18Th/Oct/2009,

We met after few days and guess where..?? The same place when we met for the very first time.
It was early in the morning i went to Punjabi Bagh to pick her, with FLOWERS & CHOCOLATES for her.
She got really surprised with my things and my true love towards her.
Life was so amazing at that time that i started finding evrything intersting in my life. For her as well.
We went to many places together, we did shopped together and Masti Love and seriously LOVE WAS IN THE AIR.

Simran She's the best thing that has happened to me till the date. My life is hell without her & my morning used to start with her lovely voice and special love for me. And same thing happens in the night for me.


In December

22/Dec/2009 was the day when my love celebrated her 16th Birthday with me.
Asusual evrything was going well and according to her plans.
we went outsmwhere with her school mates and we had so much fun out there.
I gifted her DIAMOND RING on her Birthday , as nothing was very important for me than her.
We Celebrated We Enjoyed We Spoiled We Kissed We Hugged We Loved Eachother.

In January

We started doing several things together, which i cant tell anyone (she knoes it very well).
Life was just amazing. I was so lucky to have her in my life.
Even though we were in Boards Class but still we used to meet and get time for each other.
We used to bunk our schools and tutions also.
We used to have a great bonding and understanding which led our love on the top.

In Chilly winters i used to visit at her place @ 2AM because she loves me and that time she used to miss me. Aaahhh Lovely..<3 <3
I made her IT projects as well which i used to deliver at late night and in the foggy nights.

Shes crazy for food and fish specially..
Being a hardcore punjabi's we used to eat alot trust me. but eating together was so fun.

ILOVEYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU....<3<3<3<3

4 Months passed away like a stormy wind and we couldnt believe at that time but was memorable.

In March

AAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........  We guys were on fire as our exams were on but during those precious days also we used to talk and ask each other that how much you have covered yett..

March Went Into Vain.

Finally On 28Th/Mar/2010 we guys got over with our exams and we guys were totally vella.

Yeah i still remember Simran, After your exams you went to rohtak for ART OF LIVING CAMP,
Ahhhh Those 5days were like hell and was very tough for me to get rid of that.

and after that camp you went to mussorie with your mom for 4-5days i guess. but we were in touch tho.

In May

On 27Th i planned a night stay at her place and where we had a great dinner with wine and whiskey and combo of some kababs and fish tikkas. but those were yummm..

And SSLY I WONT BE ABLE TO FORGET THAT NIGHT. LOVED IT TO THE CORE.




 

18Th October 2009..I Met My love..!!

Hey hope you listening to me?? Yeah SIMRAN I am toking to you love. You are the best that has happened to me till date.
Let's start with the beginning, 16/Oct/2009 i.e Sunday, Time around 4PM.
I met her near near bikaner sweets which is located in West Punjabi Bagh,  In fact behind bikaner sweets.
I was on white santro with my friend Mukul amd and we went together to meet her , I mean my love, I was quite nervous amd scared as it was my first time but somehow we managed to reach at her place, I was on my car and saw her from the left turn and she was in yellow top and blue jeans  and her hairs were open and quite wet as well,  we moved towards her and we caught her in the middle of the road with her friend named Vasudha.
Than they both started talking to us.
Suddenly my friend told me to take her somewhere, so that we can talk properly and share few things. Than we went to some nearby calm area and there we started our conversation and at that time I felt soo amazing and was shocked after holding her hands and for one minute I thought I am with angle and pushed my self whether I am seeing a dream or what because that was something unbelievable for me and that happened to me for the first time.
Those precious minutes were like gold minutes for us.
We started our conversation and I was listening to her (for one minute I thought its amazing to be in love with you and your lovely voice). Than their I thought I should say yes to her and should hold her hand forever (I was sentii kyuki first love tha na).
I felt sooo good and started feeling proud that my love is very beautiful and for one time I felt that I am on cloud nine and am in direct contact with god, trust me guys that was mind blasting.
The time passed very speedily, than we went back to our place where we dropped our friends. Than our friends asked us how was the drive and all, I was not able to speak because I was lost in her dreams. And then Simran started getting calls from her motber and than we move towards our place.
After we left each other we had an eye contact and that was something I could never be able to explain or feel in my life,  aaahhhh loved it..!!

I was on my way back to the home and I got call from Simran as I was waiting for her answer whether she found me interesting or not or she wanna be in relationship with me?? Quite negative questions you can sag..but her answer for me was YESSS..AND I WAS LIKE WOWWW..LOVE YOU BABY..!!